As you may remember in Part Five, something terrible happened to me and my surrogate mummy Meegan which terrified me so much I didn't want to go outside for walks.
**finds a comfy position and starts to remember**
Several days after Meegan crossed The Rainbow Bridge mummy felt up to taking me for a walk and re-starting my training again. It was very strange to be walking down the road just the two of us, I had no big black shadow to follow, and I felt very exposed and a bit scared, mummy kept giving me treats and chatting to me, and soon enough I started to feel a bit happier trotting along quite happily.
As we went round a corner I saw a Collie walking towards us, he looked friendly enough, but suddenly I started to shake and I was petrified! I had a terrible flashback to the attack and didn't want this dog anywhere near me, I felt trapped and couldn't get away.
I then did what no pup should ever do **hangs head in shame** I charged to the end of my lead shouting and swearing the most foul language at him, and to my relief his owner took him to the other side of the road. I felt calm and relieved that I had managed to scare them away, I was only a small chap after all.
I learnt that day, that if I was on the lead and reacted this way, then no dog would come near me. It was a pattern that went on for several years, and I'm ashamed to say I became the most unpleasant little dog to walk, and my poor mummy was getting more and more stressed about it, but I didn't care, I didn't want any dogs near to me as I was petrified of them, so I continued to shout and swear foul language at any dogs I met.
On one paw I was pleased that I could keep dogs away from me, but on the other paw my walks seemed to happen a weird times of the night which I didn't like, and I rarely got let off the lead as mummy was scared how I would react if I met another dog when I was off the lead.
|A Walk in the Dark **resigned sigh**|
I hated her on sight, which I know now was pretty mean of me, as she was just a cute puppy, but she scared me rigid.
Mummy spent days with just the two of us and lots of treats to get me to like her. I had to like her, or I wouldn't be allowed to stay there anymore otherwise, and eventually I started to realise she wasn't a threat, so I started to accept her. In fact nowadays we are the bestest buddies but that is a story for another installment.
|My Bestest Buddy Blue|
It was agreed I could go away on a trial run, but if I was to badly behaved, I couldn't go again.
This first trip away in the "House on Wheels" turned out to be a massive turning point in my life...
To be continued:-